Another issue was my emotional nature, it was so part of my nature and I could not change it. I went to the High Courts, the Supreme Court of India during my internship, but I realized one thing, for Law you have to be bold, unemotional, practical and strong. You have to have good memorization of section numbers, case-laws, the ingredients of important section. And the most important a person has to be bold in social networking. In a nutshell, like social sciences, a person should be a better social person. I never was, and after realizing this in my internships, I understood my nature. I was never an Arts person. My family, like other families did not wanted me to go the Arts side. They persuaded for engineering. But my dream of being a good lawyer and always working hard made them believe in me. They allowed me to pursue the Law entrance exam of India, do best internships and above all provided me with financial assistance(which you know..Law is very expensive course).
After internships, I broadened my thinking and concluded that being a good lawyer is not the only way to do good of people. I just know that this side of Arts and Humanities was not for me. On the other hand, my productivity in Mathematics and Science was excellent. My Mother always told me that in the childhood I never did a single sum wrong. I always topped in Mathematics. In 14 years, I got the title of Miss Intelligent of my class. Later, when during the age of 16-17 years, I went for studied Physics-Chemistry-Maths as an optional subject (we have to choose between one amongst Commerce batch, Medical Branch and Physics, Chemistry Mathematics branch). And I got 95 in Physics, 92 in Maths and 95 in Chemistry, despite studying for 6 hours a day for them. However, in English I got 85, despite studying for 12 hours. Then in college where I had to study humanity subjects, I flunked despite studying day and night for that. I wanted to change my field, but I did not know how.
In supporting me to fulfill my dream in Law, my family (which was a middle class family having limited sources of income) is managing to pay 10 lack Rupees (2*5=10 lacks) or 11,111 Pounds or 14,285 Dollars. Now, if I ask them to change my field, it will be a very huge burden as well as tension for them. They will lose faith in me, and I don’t think they will support me. I had lost hope, however because of Coursera, I got hope. And the whole purpose of this is to make you know that how thankful people are to the work like this. It is really appreciated. After reading about the online Bachelor degree of Computer Science, I was again filled with hope. I could again dream a new dream, in which I do what my talented wanted me to be. I searched in Google how to change from Law to Engineering and there was not even a single option. However, on searching how to change from Engineering to Law, there were thousand available. Some of my mentors in Law, some of the Advocates, they did not liked Engineering and that is why they shifted to law. After hearing about my marks in Science, they asked me why I am in Law, I could have done Engineering. This is my story of 10 years. My teenager dream was a total disaster for my nature. However, Coursera filled me with hope that yes, I can work hard, earn some money and apply for the Bachelor Course in London University.
(Moved to the Personal Development forum by